The Fog Clears Up

Ah. The fog finally clears up. That’s all I can say. Everything is much, much clearer now.

Okay. So I attended a seminar-slash-meeting on service innovation this afternoon. Masaya siya, sa totoo lang. I mean, I could really see the point why I was there in the meeting. I really, really needed to hear what the guy had to say about knowledge management systems, ontology, co-laboring, co-creating and all those techie computer science things. His research is actually a bit different from mine, but they’re still closely related. I’m glad I listened to his discussion. Because the truth is, I still have a foggy view of what I’m actually supposed to do for my Masters’ research. But after that discussion – well, let me just say that everything’s so much clearer now.

Bear with me for a while. I know, I know. Nerd talk.

Well, as the guy presented his literature, his objectives, his research questions and his methodology, a million flashbulbs began to light up in my head. I was having all these “ah-ha” moments. He discussed how co-creating was supposed enhance knowledge management systems and I then I suddenly thought, “Oh, I see. Now I understand what I’m supposed to do for my research.”

Yeah. Like crazy.

For my research, I’m supposed to create a new model by “marrying” e-commerce and service dominant logic. E-commerce I know, but service dominant logic? Uhh, what on earth is that? But thank God for Knowledge Management System Guy because what he said about co-creating cleared up the fog on SDL.

Yeah. The fog’s been cleared up for me. But I bet you’re wondering why I’m rambling on and on about my research and about that seminar that I attended this afternoon.

The thing is, I’m just so excited right now to get into this research. One of the FTSM senior lecturers tried to explain to me the other week what my task at hand was all about. She said, “You have to ‘marry’ the two concepts – e-commerce and SDL. Ahh, but that’s going to be difficult. Because that’s like asking two clashing people to marry and live with each other.”

Hmm. Interesting. I think it’s the possibility in the impossibility that makes me want to see how this whole model is going to work out. Once I got to know what SDL was all about, my mind began reeling ways on how e-commerce and SDL were going to marry one another and how they were going to live with each other.

Yeah, it really is possible. I believe that it’s because there’s going to be that certain point wherein the two different concepts are going to meet. Kumbaga, pag yung dalawang nagclaclash na tao ang pinag-uusapan, there’s that point when they would find out that they actually click, that they don’t actually clash, and that they could actually make all their differences work out.

Parang kami ni Shie. We used to have our differences, but now we’re real good friends. Our stepping into the professional world at relatively the same time (as well as all our thoughts about love, life, and leaving) made us “click” after all those clashing housemate years.

Parang kami ni Lord. I used to be so allergic to the “God-thing” and felt uncomfortable about writing and speaking about it, but I am so, so okay with that right now. I guess it was because of that instance wherein God showed me how real and how important He truly is in my life.

Parang kami ng Malaysia. I would never have thought that Mari and Malaysia would go together but look where I am now. I guess it was at that moment when I realized that I loved Malaysia, when I realized and believed na pwede pala, that everything just simply fell into place.

And so it will be with this research. So what if e-commerce and SDL really don’t match? There’s going to be that point wherein e-commerce and SDL would “click”. They will eventually realize that they can actually have a happily ever after together. And then they will have that happily ever after.

Wee. Excited for this. :)

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Crazier

Crazier by Taylor Swift is on an infinite loop in my now playing list. Taylor’s been going at it this whole afternoon. But for some reason, I can’t turn her off. Can’t replace her with Rita Springer, Lisa Gungor, Watermark, Vicky Beeching, Kari Jobe or any of my usual WMP dominators just yet.

I dunno. There’s something about the waltzy feel of the Hannah Montana Movie theme song that just pulls a trigger in my heart.

I know it’s supposed to be a love song and it’s supposed to be about a guy who dances with a girl and makes her go gaga when he looks into her eyes. Admittedly, yeah, I did first fall in love with the song because of that dimension. But as my laptop plays the song for the nth time, I’m no longer thinking about that guy who “[lifts] my feet off the ground, [spins] me around” and “[makes] me crazier, crazier.”

Truth is, my mind is now on the Guy who truly “[showed] me what livin’ is for”.

My Daddy God.

I have this wild, crazy and vivid imagination which helps me out as an artist and as a writer. And I believe it’s a God-given imagination. As the song continues to play, an image of a beautiful girl is painted on my mind. She’s wearing this real pretty dress – cream, almost white – and she’s standing in this wide open field with blues and greens stretched out before her horizon. A gentle breeze is messing up her black-chocolate hair, but she doesn’t care anyway. Because as she looks towards the hills and the valleys, this Man walks up from behind her, taps her shoulder, and asks her to dance.

I’ll make the long story short and just say that I’m actually that girl and the Man asking me to dance is actually my Daddy God.

Just the thought of God asking me to dance with Him brings tears to my eyes.

Maybe it’s because I have mixed emotions about dances. I mean, I really used to hate dances (especially high school dances) because nobody really asked me to dance back then. I mean, I used to sit through an entire party watching everybody else dance and wait until the end to get that one pathetic dance with the guy who would feel sorry enough for that poor lil’ ol’ wallflower.

Well, I got healed from that. But still the thought of somebody really wanting to dance with me turns me into this big cry baby.

And that somebody being Daddy God – well, let’s just say right now, I am so reduced to mush.

 

And so at this moment, I am waltzing with the Divine. I’m allowing Him to take me into His arms, allowing Him place His hands into mine… I’m letting Him spin me around, letting Him lift my feet off the ground… And I’m giving Him permission to look into my eyes, into my very soul, rendering me completely vulnerable… I’m allowing His strong nature to lead my fragile one, allowing Him

to simply lead me in this dance called life.

Well, Taylor Swift is still singing it out. Sigh. I’m not stopping her. Cause I’m still caught up in that dance with my Daddy God.

Before Shiela Day Arrives

Mari day muna please. Hahaha. Okay, okay. So I was supposed to be doing a lot of things today, but due to some unforeseen circumstances, I wasn’t able to tick those stuff off my to-do list. So I found myself making up for the sleep that I kinda lost the past couple of days instead. I then did a couple of stuff afterwards (afterwards meaning when I finally got around to waking up. LOL).

Isa na ron ay ang pagbisita sa FS account ko na saka ko lang binubuhay pag napag-iisipan kong magblog.

Well, I decided to browse through my old testimonials. You know. The ones that people used to give-out in FS before the comment thing became the new testi. :)

Okay, okay, so most of the stuff I found in my profile page were embedded graphics, videos, and whatnots, but there were a couple of testimonials that made me smile, laugh, and yeah, made me get kinda teary eyed as well.

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Warning: Medyo marami ata to. Haha. Sige lang. Time for another “long” blog entry anyway.

FROM MY FAMILY

Quantum

The word hello means:

H-how are you
E-everything i hope is alright
L-like to hear from you
L-love to see you soon
O-obviously i miss you

HELLO!

wala lang. ang ganda ng testimonial ko para sa iyo dba? heheh, joke.. c ate mari ay mabait at hindi parang ibang ate na nakainis at masungit.. mabait siya PROMISE! medyo magkaiba kami ng ugali dahil lalaki ako pero ang iba naming ugali ay medyo pareho. We both like video games and most of the time, she’ll be petting cats and other cute animals… she is also cute herself and she is probably taller than me. She is not to snobby and she is very good to have around as long as she;s not in a bad mood.. she is kind and a true christian and she gave me a bible —- isn’t that special? She really is a loving and lovable sister and friend, and a very interesting person to talk to.

she is very smart ( a lot smarter than me). i think that she inheritted most of the good attributes of my parents.. but i still love her!

thank you

(Love na love ko talaga ang kapatid ko. Patawa ka talaga, balong!)

beibi (ate carla) 07/15/2004

ang pinsan kong c mari ay supar alien talaga, nasa kanya na lahat ng M, matalino, maganda, mabait, mahiyain,…etc….hehehe nakakapagod pag sasabihin mo lahat e,. niwey, itong batang ito very active cia sa skul, lahat nga ng ndi ko najoin na mga activities napuntahan niya, lalo na yung miss intrams, grabe ang fighting spirit and confidence nito,.

sobrang mahinhin ito,. nun bata cia ako ang nagaalaga sa knya, cute cute nia parang siopao mukha nia kc napakaround face nd she has small lips talaga, pero ang rami niang talent,:)

kaibiganin niyo c mari, u will neverregret it,:) uy mis ka na namin!!!

ingat der!!!

mark 07/09/2004

hahah! firs testi!! okei si mari, pinsan ko yan! heheh hilig sha sa anime heheh! bait pa cya supr! kaso nga lang mejo mahiyain ei! heheheh! nyweiz talino rin po cya! tpos ganda pa! heheh dib? :) heheh and trustworthy, loyal, caring, lovable at maramin pang ibaa!

kung isusulat ko lahat e di na kakasya d2 ei… heheh nyweiz! d2 muna ako ha?

un ibang testi nx tym nalang ayt!? :)

kei babye!!!!!!!!!! ingat ka jan!!!!!!!!

FROM MY FRIENDS FROM BSU SLS

emerald Lo

what do i tell about mari anjeli? all i can remember at this very moment are the words:ay sorry! ala! thank you! uyyy! sorry ulit! thank you! ay ala sorry talaga!!!

confused? well, its one of the SECRETOOOS i keep about her (just ask her if you really want to know!) Anyway, Mari is one of my oldest friends (she has been my schoolmate since elementary). She is so intelligent (i’ve no comment about that, eveyone knows it!) She is also talented (imagine how possible would her ms. intrams title be without that violin!). Long ago, she was so cute(you know what i mean), now she’s nothing but a HOT SEXY CHICK!

one last thing i tell about her is: she is a real friend; the thing i’ve proved over our misunderstandings and the fun. =)

pasSeR (enn! haha) 04/18/2005

well… wat shud i say????? mari is juz so hard to shun dis days though i havntseen her 4 a LONG tym….juz too long to forget some unimportant things or persons shud i say.How lucky dis girl is.

To tell u guyz honestly she’s d only person i greatly admire… y not? f u rili know her den u shud know y!!!!!! hump…wel for those hu dont, mari s such an INTELLECTUAL person nd she’s rili multi-TALENTED(mind you she’s also our miss intrmurals during our hiskul days) nd f il elabor8 how gfted she s mawa2ln ng spce . i lyk her becoz she’s d only 1 hu did understnd my poem back den(un lang ang dhiln! bwahahaha!!! ang babaw!).kidin’ asyd, i rili lyk her bcoz until now she reminds me of SoMeTHING.hihihihi.u knw wat i min!

maam/ate hiLDa 10/24/2004

c Mari, super talino ng batang ito, multi-talented.. the first time i saw her, super-tahimik siya sa klase and seems like she’s not interested with my subject (MATH pa un), what i did was i called her to recite and i was really surprised, henyo ang batang to! and what i really like about this girl is her humility. having all those God-given talents, still, she’s very humble. No wonder, she had everything.. Mari, let God be the center of your life and He will give all the desires of your heart. College life is full of ups and downs, just keep on trusting Him. I may not be with u physically,but through prayers, i’ll always be. take care always! God bless U.. hugs and kisses

FROM SOME BS CS FRIENDS

tanja 01/06/2006

mari! hehehe..=) naging mejo kaclose ko xa nung mging clasm8s kme sa stat101 lab at lec.. hahaha! pati nrin sa cmsc22.. bhelat.. who would’ve thought??? hehehe! mdali xang makasundo.. hehehe.. softspoken xang tao at may sense kausap. sobrang talino nito, grabeh! and siguro it’s an understatement to say na blessed xa ni Lord..=) grabe..=) hehehe!

oi marie, ingat ka lagi ha..and keep serving God.. hehehe. sana mging clasm8 pa kita in more subjects!! at oo nga pala!! gudlak sa math27!! hahaha.

God bless!=)

Amor 12/01/2005

c mari.. ang taong mahirap kausapin… hehehe.. pero cyempre mabait… matipid magsalita, pero minsan, nkakausap nman…isang npakatalented na bata… galing magdrawing.. =)

muntik ko ng mkalimutan, sobrang talino ng babaeng ‘to…

most of all…………………..

she’s a faithful servant of the lord….

god bless u…

FROM MY DESTINY FAMILY

marian10/08/2004

I tell you, this girl is great! She’s beautiful and intelligent inside and out. She’s kind, mahinhin (ei, ikaw ang mahinhin hindi ako), tahimik na madaldal (promise!), super active at masayang kausap.

You may also count on her anytime you’ll be needing help and advices — physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

She’ll never let you down.

Get to know her and you’ll discover more great things about her. “,

leizl 06/27/2005

when I first saw her, I thought di ko xa mapapagsalitasobrang tahimik kas ibut when I got to know herchatty rin palavery choleric(but dont put too much pressure to yourself ha ?(,) great in academicsvery excellent oppps, as I told you, ikaw ang magdedeliver ng valedictory speech sa graduation nyovery faithful din sa ministry niyasipag gumising ng maaga. May you not go weary in serving Himlove u dearie..muahhhhh.

adrian 07/16/05

the woman who rarely speaks her mind. but spills her heart out. silent yet loud in character. gentle in ways but aggressive in the spirit. a prodigy. a genius. anjeli, i just practiced my poetic writing skills. effective ba? joke. he,he. but to all those eyes who will walk into this testimonial, totoo po ang lahat ng description kong ito sa sis ko. sis, keep on keeping on. the Lord is your reward.

your heart reflects the goodness of the Lord. god bless!

Mars 04/13/2006

hmm…my simple but very pretty ate!!..God is pleased with her…i love this gurl..

she’s more than a blessing..she’s a gift!!!!

love you in Him!!..godbless po ate!!

jennah 02/10/2008

certified levite… a mighty woman of the Kingdom… I’m proud of how you have become! Hope to see you in greater relationship with HIM as you continually live your call. i may not always say or express things outright, but i am truly proud of you my adopted daughter… love you much! im still here.. ^ate CT^

katKatkatKat 05/26/2008

what can i say?? you’re one of the most beautiful thing that happened in my life… m realy to God that He gave me to you!! thanks for everything.. without you, i don’t what am i now… hmm… u helped me to see things and to realize things.. i love you very much ate,,, you’re like a real sister to me!! tc po lage!!!

Jo_hanna 06/27/2008

dearest mari, thanks so much for the presentation you have prepared for my birthday. I am deeply touched. I am greatly honoured of the woman of God that you are becoming… more and more the PRINCESS that you truly are. :) thanks so much for all the prayers… for holding the other end of the rope, from the nations to the base. love you mari dear… God bless. love you. and missing you a lot..

keimeee 07/11/2008

ate alam mo po ba na yung pangalan mong “anjeli” ibig sabihin ay “gift” o kaya naman ay “offering?” ganda noh te?

love,

kaila

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Yeah. Most of the stuff written up there are very me. Some are real eye-openers (like, mahinhin talaga ako???). Some would come across as revelations talaga to other people (bet you didn’t know some of the stuff written there). And yun.

I really don’t know why I decided to post this blog post.

Maybe it’s because there are times that we find ourselves asking, “Did I make a difference?”

And maybe as I asked myself that very question this very day — this was God’s way of answering that question.

Okay, okay.

This ends the discourse about me.

Shiela day arrives tomorrow. :)