Month: October 2008

Random thoughts

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It’s going to be a busy week. But before the week gets crazier I’m just going to blog out some random thoughts swirling in my head. I’m waiting for the water delivery guy (more than an hour has already passed) and I’m also waiting for the rain to stop (tumitila naman na).

I don’t have the annointing to make any lengthy compositions. But I have a lot of thoughts that need to be sorted out, that need to take the form of words.

I don’t know how to start.

So I’ll just start here.


Random thought 1.
“Ako ay may isang munting pangarap.” Ayun pala yun. Just playing this song over and over in my laptop. Listening to the songs for the Malaysia presentation. Trying to visualize the whole thing. Still can’t. Imaginative and creative powers not working.

Random thought 2.
Speaking of Malaysia presentation — nawawala nanaman ako. Haha. Ano daw? Anu na nga? Anjeli? Nasan ka na? Ano? Di ko gets. Basta ito yon — balang araw, maabot ko rin ang — err.. ang mga — notang iyan. Balang araw.

Random thought 3.
I’m craving for some chocolate. And coffee. Sigh. Comfort foods. As if I need comforting. Haha. Masaya nga ako diba? (Walang akads, churva, etc…) But still. I want some chocolate. And coffee.

Random thought 4.
Still haven’t rebooked yet. Kelan kaya?

Random thought 5.
I need to go home to Baguio. Can’t fit it to my sked though. Ma, pupugutan niyo po ba ako ng ulo pag sa undas na ako makakauwi? Di naman siguro no. Hehe.

Random thought 6.
Project presentations coming up. Need to prepare the evaluation forms. Oh God. I’ll need to get up early tomorrow. Presentation starts at  8:00am. Ends at 6:00pm. 124 presentation starts the following day. Starts at 8:00am again. Ends at — I don’t know what time.

And in the evening — Sigh. It’s going to be a crazy week.

Random thought 7.
Kumusta na kaya ang EnglishWorld website? Still can’t get over the pre-wrap thing. Hindi talaga ako ComSci. Pwede bang magsecond course?

Harhar. But I love this course. I have to. Haha.

Pero pwede ba?

Random thought 8.
Last cell meeting for the sem. Sigh. It’s been a great sem… (slips into super melanchony mode…)

Random thought 9.
Singapore! Singapore! Singapore! (Anjeli jumps up and down, twirls around, skips and dances with glee)

Random thought 10.
Pwede bang magvideoke ulit? Kailangan ko ata ulit ng release. Hehe.

Random thought 11.
Kumusta na kaya ang mga papeles ko? Need to follow-up on that this afternoon. After I pay the electric bill.

Random thought 12.
Wala na. Still waiting for the water delivery guy. The rain’s already stopped. But since the delivery guy hasn’t arrived yet, I’m still stuck here.

Random thought 13.
Just realized that I’m babbling all over the place. And rambling on and on and on. Which must mean that I’m stressed. But I’m not.
So what’s up with me?

Hmmm.

Oh yeah.

I know.

Haha.

My highschool friends would know.

They’ve seen me like this before.

Right Enn? Eme? Ces? Natasha? Marian??

Haha. Funny.

Random thought 14.
Related to random thought 13. Ano ba talaga yun?

I don’t know. Hehe. Oh yes I do. But nobody else knows. Except shiela.

Random thought 15.
Bakit ba si shiela lang ang may alam?

Kasi safe si shiela. Yun lang. Hhehe.

Random thought 16.
 Oh God. Throw me a lifeline.

Random thought 17.
Videoke ulit tayo.

Random thought 18.
 Okay, this entry is now getting — err, crazy. So this ends here.

Right.

Now where’s the deliver guy?

Call me Anjeli

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Mari (Hebrew): Wished for child, gift from God. www.babiesonline.com
(Welsh):Variant of Mary meaning, “star of the sea”, wished for child, sea of rebellion, bitterness
www.thinkbabynames.com
(Hebrew): Uncertain, maybe bitter. babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com
(Japanese):truth (ma) and righteousness (ri). babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com

Anjeli (Sanskrit): gift or offering. babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com

Wished for? Gift? Star of the sea? Bitter? Truth and righteousness? Offering? Ever since I learned how important names are — how the meanings of our names could tell something about who we are — I’ve been crawling all over the google pages looking for the meaning of “Mari Anjeli”.

I’ve found plenty of meanings for Mari. You can see that in the portion above. Some of those meanings suit me, but there are some meanings that I’m not particularly happy about. I mean, bitter? Sea of Rebellion? Who would want to be called that? “Bitter! Come over here! Sea of Rebellion, do you mind washing the dishes?” Come on. I’ll take the Japanese meaning any day.

As for Anjeli… Honestly, I never tried looking for the meaning of “Anjeli”. I would type in “Angeli” in the google search box and wait for the results to pop up. I would get results like “messenger”. So all along, I thought my name “Mari Anjeli” meant “messenger of truth and righteousness” (yeah!) or “wished for messenger” or “bitter messenger” (uh, no thanks). But since I never tried looking for “Anjeli”, I never got the true meaning of my name.

It was only recently (recently meaning a couple of months ago – LOL!) when a friend of mine (friends na pala tayo! Hehe. Yeah!) posted a comment in my friendster profile saying, “ate alam mo po ba na yung pangalan mong ‘anjeli’ ibig sabihin ay ‘gift’ o kaya naman ay ‘offering?’ ganda noh te?” that I realized the true meaning of my name. Whoa. So I’m not a messenger. I am a gift. I am an offering.

I am an offering of truth and righteousness. I am a wished for offering, a wished for gift. And, okay. Maybe sometimes I am a bitter offering. But still, I am an offering.

Yesterday, Kuya Paul shared about the woman and her alabaster jar. How she just poured out everything in worship at Jesus’ feet. The story struck my the deepest of my spirit and my soul once again. My heart’s cry to the Lord that morning was, “Lord, I want to make that kind of offering!” And then He told me, “You are that offering, Anjeli.”

Anjeli. Nobody really calls me that. Nobody except my parents, my parents’ officemates, my relatives in the US, and sometimes Shiela, Adrian, Kuya Bernard, Cristina Joy (who calls me miss anjeli) and Ate Nevs (who on the other hand calls me teacher anjeli). But everybody else calls me Mari. But it might be nice if more people would start calling me Anjeli. So that I would be reminded that I am an offering.

So, call me Anjeli.